Saturday 26 May 2012

HOMESICK


In this eternal
coming and going
I feel my heart
is dying.
Homesick
because I no longer
know
where home is.
And  I am trailing
this Sehnsucht
to every corner of Mother Earth.

Friday 25 May 2012

ALL THAT JAZZ



  
I decided
to embrace contradiction
to make it my essence
instead of evading it.
Reality is heavy:
I cannot mould into it.
I do not think
society isn’t on a human scale anymore
it’s me
that I wasn’t made on a society scale.
I am 27
and found out
I don’t like the rules of this world,
its silly and useless tricks.
Its pace alienates me.
I cannot be part of it.
I,
I just want to watch the ceiling
and listen to jazz.

Tuesday 22 May 2012

DANCE OF DEATH


FRIDA KAHLO, Heinrich Ford Hospital, 1932.



I never understood Frida better

than I do now

sitting in the dark

of this closed box.

Anguish

my body exploding

creatures colonizing my organs.

I wish

I hadn’t done that.

Partially reversible.

Partially murdering.

Virgins are dancing inside me

they dance and suffocate me.

I became lame

but it was not the polio.

Dance of death.

The sleeping pills

will have their effect

soon.


Monday 21 May 2012

RITUALS



Human beings
need 
to hurt 
themselves.


They socialize
and ritualize
forms of masochism.
Our society si fraught with them.
We have capitalized
the leftovers
of tribal courage.



pic: me performing HUMANS @ the Hackney Wicked Festival 2011, by Sandra Ciampone.